I think I forget this more than I care to admit. Today we live in a world that’s so focused on social media and appearance and looks that it’s easy to get caught up in what you should look like. What you should be posting on social media or the types of interests you should have. I always PRIDED myself on being a girl that beats to her own drum. Someone that never falls prey to what others are doing.
Well you want to know what? I had a conversation with a friend the other day that made me realize slowly but surely I had fallen prey to society and social norms. I had become too concerned about looking a certain way, acting a certain way and being a certain way. I subconsciously decided that I wasn’t enough anymore. I’m not quite sure when this happened but it did– and now I’ve been brought back to reality.
As you all know, I started this blog not too long ago. I’ll be honest, my dream is to be a spirituality and life coach, and to finally be able to work from home and travel. This blog is the beginning of this new journey and maybe 6 months ago, I was in the perfect mindset for it. I had done all the work, I had grown immensely and then just as I was at my peak… I wasn’t ready to share it so I let it all go.
I’m not too big to admit this. It happens to us all. No matter how confident we are or how sure of ourselves we are sometimes we fall back into that hole of comparisons and listening to our ego and fear. Those voices in our heads that warn us against growing too big or standing too tall. It happened to me and I thought I was unbreakable. I thought that I did all my spiritual legwork and it was fine if I took a few days off. A few weeks… which turned into a few months. Then here I am listening to a friend telling me how she used to be insecure and cared what people thought… “just like you….”
Who?! Me?! She can’t possibly mean me.
Well she did and as it turned out she wasn’t off base. The self assured and spiritually sound woman I was only 6 months ago has faded and I get to start my spiritual journey again… but now it’s more exciting because I am finally doing what I wanted to do back then but I was too scared. I get to share this with you.
So let’s meet again. My name is Marisa. I’m 26 years old and I live in NJ. I love books (self help AND Harry Potter), crystals, essential oils, horseback riding and drinking wine. Lots and lots of wine. I have my ups and my downs and am constantly searching for meaning and purpose in this world we live in. It’s nice to meet all of you again, as my true self.
So from now on I will be posting from my heart, not just rewording what I’ve learned. I want to share my experiences, my trials, my ups and my downs. I don’t want to fit a mold and I’m not going to pretend to– and I hope that I get to relate to some of you and we can share our experiences of growth together. Please say hi and introduce yourself in the comments below!
“To thine own self be true”– Shakespeare